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Lachrymose
01:10
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Stared at the wall all fucking night
I am dying through 3-AM-eyes
And nightmares of: everybody dies
And I’m left alone with me
Screaming at demons inside my mind
They keep me awake; alive
(I’m sorry, I tried)
Salvation waits on the other side
Forever out of reach
I was looking for life
Fell in love with death
Drew a heart on my sleeve
Crossed it out in black
I was dreaming of heaven and hell again
There’s no room for me in either one of them
I see my life in distorted frames
Can we please just skip to the end?
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2. |
Toledo
01:35
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All of the kids I knew, they’ve all been fucking dying
Glassy-eyed, frozen hearts
Fragmented lives planned on cutting short
Golden boys and decorated girls are dying young
Needles in their arms
I can’t say I blame them,
We were sold a dream that we can’t afford
(We were never going to leave)
It’s so hard to find your place in a world that doesn’t want you
Move on from this place
All of the kids I knew, they’ve all been fucking dying
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3. |
The Art Of Playing Dead
01:33
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I was never good at speaking from the heart
Dressed in black with an icy tongue
A frightened child
Screaming in the dark
I never had the light to shine it on
My closet full of skeletons:
Dreams are the misery
That only heaven knows
Don’t let them see you in the light
Cover the scars
Don’t let them see your fucking beating heart
Wash off the blood
Without a pulse there’s nothing left to crush
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4. |
F.M.E.G.
00:40
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Everything you say…
Everything you do…
Everything you are…
You’re a fucking fake
There’s a place in hell for motherfuckers like you
No sympathy for the spiritual abuse
You reap what you sow and you’re left all alone
You burnt your last bridge
This was never your home
You will never belong here.
Fuck you.
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5. |
Motion Sickness
01:57
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Don’t talk to me today,
I’m running out of all my well-wishes
Going through the motions, with motion sickness
You don’t wanna see
The world from where I’m standing
Isolation.
Desolation.
I’m always here again,
And again,
And again.
Terminally unique
Everything that makes me whole
Everything that’s killing me
Terminally unique
The sun is always rising on me,
Crown prince of self-pity
I never liked the smell of flowers anyway
I’ve always found myself praying for rain
Fuck everything.
I don’t want to be me anymore.
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6. |
Purgatory
02:53
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You’ve been having that dream
That one where you’re killing me
Poison, pills, and razor blades end the misery
(For you or for me?)
Recitations and confirmations
And not-enough-for-me’s
Forgot the words to our favorite songs
We sing along, but I don’t know what it means
There’s nothing left for us in yesterday;
The past has passed us by
Slept through our better days
Shed a tear for fading memories
Before I gave up on you
Before you gave up on me
Pulling from a well run dry
Where we had something to feel alive
Thoughts caught in strangulation
Is anything worth saving?
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7. |
Violence
01:21
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What the fuck...
The endless violence of noise, again
The broken silence swelling up in my head
What the fuck does everybody want from me?
I can’t think straight
My vision’s blurred
Tired of the bullshit
In this fucking world
Did you hear what I just said?
Do you understand?
Leave me the fuck alone.
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8. |
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Nothing feels right
When I’m always on the outside
My hands are always pressing glass
Nothing is mine
This is someone else’s life
And I don’t think I fit the part quite right
Can’t make a connection
Can’t fake an interest
Can’t sleep, can’t eat
Can’t think, can’t speak
Can’t breathe
The pressure builds up in my head
I’m not supposed to be here
I wasn’t meant to belong
I never wanted to be here
I didn’t want to belong
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9. |
Scituate
01:34
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Eyes like knives,
Drawing blood to skin
Hanging on every single word
From poisoned lips;
Just give me anything
I’ve been hiding in the shadows
Because of you
I built these walls around myself,
It’s all for you—
Fuck you.
Time and time again,
I press blade to skin
And light a match,
Hoping to burn this bridge
I was the moth,
And you were the flames
Lust or pain,
Love or Hate?
Die crying;
Die laughing
They’re the fucking same
Fuck everything I ever loved about you,
Fuck everything I ever loved.
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10. |
Black Clouds
01:14
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Alive, though every day gets a little bit darker
And the sun’s shaded blue (in my eyes)
Yeah, “this one’s been a long fucking winter”
Ten years (in my head) all I wanted was death
Learned to hide it,
Lied.
“I think I’m just a little tired”
Forced a smile,
Lied again.
(When I said I was alright)
Crawled out through your bedroom window
I walked home alone in the dark
Black clouds don’t follow me at night
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11. |
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I tried to pull down the sky
Always running in the wrong direction,
For fear of everything I knew that I was missing
Collecting scars from always falling down
I broke my hand trying to break the ceiling
Nothing is ever enough
Until there’s nothing fucking left
Time stands still, life passes by
With a hole in my chest, a thorn in my side
Steal from the thieves that stole everything
Blowing up the moon and pulling down the sky
Nothing is ever enough
Until there’s nothing fucking left
When I said I was wishing for death
What I meant was just to live again
Life owed me something more than this
But so it goes...
I can’t believe it’s happening again
I can’t believe I fucking did it again
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